i'm gonna brag here for a moment...

i know i know, i HATE it when fat girls post shit all over facebook in their status everyday about "going for a jog, i feel great!" kinda crap, because it's annoying. i mean, good for you, i'm happy you're doing that, but like, then why dont you post "yay, i just peed! so relieved!" you know? i should do that one day, see what kinda reactions i'd get bahaha.

ANYWAYS, instead of posting in my facebook status for the world to see (not as many people see my blog ha), i just want to brag about the 16 lbs i've lost in the past 3 weeks. i'm so proud of myself, even though ive still got a while to go, i'm just happy that i'm doing this for myself. for some reason as much as i've wanted to lose weight in the past, i've just been far too afraid. sometimes even though being happy is my ultimate goal in life, i'm just too afraid to do something that will actually make me happy. more than looks or anything else, i'm just doing this to ensure that i am healthy and fit, i would beat myself up if i got diabetes one day (it runs heavily in my family) because i didn't properly take care of myself, and having a heart attack at a young age is also a fear that drives me. i know i can do better than allowing myself to get sick out of pure laziness, so why would i settle for it? i've made some bad choices in the past and i've paid for them, but it's never too late to make changes, right?

i wish i may i wish i might wish this wish i wish tonight...

ugh. i feel like so much yet so little has happened in the past while since i've been absent from my blog. there's not really a whole hell of a lot of uber-eventfulness to write about, which kinda makes me sad.

i've been really grouchy lately and i'm not really sure why, though it's really frustrating me (no, it's not PMS). things that people do and say are just getting to me. it seems now that summer has *finally* arrived, it seems so have the idiots.

i wish people wouldn't tell me how to do my job when clearly they are sitting in my chair because they need my professional opinion.

i wish people weren't so stuck up about religion. actually, i wish religion would just go away. beliefs, gods and morality can stay, but organized religion be gone! until people can be religious without being pompous, pig-headed and arrogant, i think it should not exist. a prime example: i hate peas and think they are the nastiest things ever. if i hated/disliked or harshly judged everyone who liked peas, i would not have a lot of friends.

i wish bad things didn't happen to good people.

i wish people would stand up for themselves instead of just complaining about it. yes, i realize i fall into this category sometimes too.

i wish people would grow their own brains. you've got a brain, use it. that's what it's there for, not so you can just "download" information from one person or source and use that as your opinion "because they said so". that's plagiarism of the brain.

i wish everyone in the world could get along with and love their parents and siblings as much as i love and need mine.

i wish people would drive the speed limit and not 10 clicks under, especially in a 50 zone.

i wish people wouldn't judge others by how they look. not returning a hello to a stranger as they walk by you because you think you're better or better looking than them is an asshole move. (i need to work on this one... i think emo/scene kids are idiots haha)

i wish i wasn't allergic to stupid things like celery and cucumbers. i love celery and cucumbers! i eat them regardless, but it'd be so much more enjoyable/so much less annoying if i didnt get itchy from it. ha.

i wish i drove a crotch rocket. and lived in california.

i wish i had the means to invent all the weird shit i come up with on a daily basis. i would be rich, let me tell you.

i wish everyone could see things through each others eyes.
Friend 1: you know what i mean?
Friend 2: not really
*friend 1 passes eyeballs to friend 2*
understanding instead of the need to be right...

i wish people wouldn't just say things like "we're sorry if we hurt you, it was not our intention" when they're in front of other people just to make themselves look sincere when you know that behind the scenes, they avoided reconciliation at all costs.

why do people feel the need to pretend? to put on a face? maybe it's cos no body cares. maybe cos they care too much. either way, i'm sick of it. be who you are, don't hide behind a wall. if you're sad, cry. if you're happy, jubilate. if you've got problems, talk to someone who can help you. i thought people got passed all that pretentious shit after high school. apparently it just gets worse.

anyhow, this was not meant to be depressing at all, just contemplative. when i started off writing it, i started with "i hate it when..." but that felt too negative. the things we dislike and that bother us can become so consuming when we think of them in negative ways. they eat at us and bring us down. so i tried to put a little spin on it, by starting with "i wish". "i wish" makes us hopeful. it makes us believe that anything you can think of can happen, can become a reality. maybe filling my days with "i wish" thoughts instead of "i hate" thoughts will help to make me less grumpy.

Long Weekend

i was just thinking why do we have Victoria Day this weekend and we get it off, but people in England only have next weekend off? (at least Anthony has next weekend off anyhow). you'd think since it's named after Queen Victoria, we'd synchronize the holiday or something, and since they are the "mother land".

i dont know what i'm going on about really.

i had a pretty lame long weekend. just worked. but i did get out to see Port Amoral at Skate 4 Cancer last night at the Forks, which was pretty awesome. they put on a great show as always, and even included a bunch of their newer songs, much to my satisfaction. if you dont know who Port Amoral is then get the fuck on it and go to their myspace - www.myspace.com/portamoral Villains is the GREATEST song ever. Eric's guitar skills are killer. and i wouldn't lie to you.

i had a purpose to this post, i'm sure of it, i've just forgotten what it was, and i realized that i haven't blogged in about a month. anyhow, i hope everyone had a great weekend and enjoy the rest of it.

and i definitely need some people to get together and play MUNCHKIN BOOTY at some point in the NEAR future. it's a wicked game, i swear.

cheers.
xx

Paraguay, here i come!

i'm starting to get more and more excited for my trip to Paraguay. granted, i make it through the insane amount i have to work before we go (basically a full time job covering for a lady while she's gone for a month, and then doing part time on top of that...) but at least it'll actually FEEL like a well-deserved break. i've been talking to my cousin who lives in Asuncion (the capital city) and i was telling her that i'd really like to explore the city with her for a bit and maybe go out dancing with some of my cousins. i'm really excited because usually we just go to the small town of Loma Plata to spend time with family. not that i dont love doing that, but it's just that i've been to Paraguay at least 5 times now and have never actually experienced anything but Loma Plata and i haven't explored at all. i mean, living in Loma Plata is completely different than what i'm used to at home: it's a tight knit mennonite community, all dirt roads, the best fruit i've ever had, snakes, everyones farms are only about a half hour to 45 minute drive away... and i always have fun there, but i'd like to see more of Paraguay. hopefully it works out that a few cousins and i make a trip out there and explore. i think it would be awesome to see the city my dad grew up in!

*sings* iiii hate winnipeg!

Oh Winnipeg, you never cease to amaze me.

It's April 25th and it's snowing like a freaking blizzard outisde. I'm not kidding. Not like a tiny bit of snow, it's actually like a mid-winter snowstorm without the heaps of snow already on the ground.

No more!! I demand summer!

*shakes fist at the heavens*

News from the Observation Deck

I was just noticing in the past little while that when you look at couples, a lot of the time they two people in the relationship look very similar. Facial features, hair color.... they both have prominent noses, blue eyes, whatever it may be. I think it's funny to see, but at the same time it makes me wonder if it's a subconscious narcissism. Like an "I think I look good and I see a guy who looks similar to me so I think he looks good" kinda thing. The funny thing is, I don't think people really realize it. When you look at couples like that, you just think, "wow, they look really good together!" but that's probably because they look alike. It makes sense though obviously not every couple is like that. I've been noticing a lot of them more and more lately. Maybe I've just finally started to pay attention.

It's like how in high school, kids get super pissed off if you tell them they look like their mom or their dad. Then Parent-Teacher Day comes around and you sit in the hallway watching them all walk by with their parents and you can't help but laugh because they are a splitting image of their parents. Parents think their kids look good because they are mini versions of them. (well, that and if even your mother thinks your ugly, then shitson you got the short end of the stick).

Relationships and childbearing all just seems narcissistic and self-centered when you look at them from an outside point of view. Emotions aside, everyone just wants to be with someone who is like them. Everyone wants to be with themselves. They want to bring up little miniature versions of themselves. They want their kids to be the things that they wanted to be growing up but never ended up becoming. I just think it's interesting and curious that no matter what, everyone's world revolves around themselves. As much as we (well, some of us) try to be selfless, ultimately everyone wants to take care of "number one".

oh baby oh baby!!

so, finally, i have found someone who will go to California with me! i am le stoked. le fucking stoked. so, i haven't actually talked to my partner in crime about the details yet, but i told him it was going to be a sick road trip, and i had the perfect one planned out. BASICALLY if all goes according to plan, i want to drive to San Fran, hang out there la-di-da then take the coast down to LA, and then down to San Diego and on the way back up we'll go through Vegas and Salt Lake City. most of the places i've looked into already and kinda know what i wanna do there, but i haven't gotten to SLC yet, so if you have any good ideas of what to do out there, let me know. actually, if you have any good ideas about ANY of the places, let me know. Alcatraz is definitely on my to do list. and the San Diego Zoo... i forget what else there was but i had a good list going. so yeah, suggestions - feel free to comment or to email me or whatever. woot!

much love,
Karis